Rash Words

I know I want to say something and yet over and over I keep erasing and rewriting.  I know who I want to say it to but he won't message me and has me blocked and banned.  Won't even give me a chance.   He says my words were offensive but did he pay attention to my reasoning behind the words.

Has he been told that his father couldn't get a position at a job because of a Southern accent?  Has he been called redneck and country because he grew up and enjoys farming communities.  Has he been looked down upon by others because of his country roots?

Does he even care?  I apologized more than once and all I get was a delete and I went to his "fan" page and within my anger wrote this, "One simple mistake and you delete someone? I am sorry to see that you aren't one to give people a second chance. With the reading of your poems and even after chatting with you a few times I thought you were a bigger man than this, yet I see that I was mistaken. I am sorry I wanted to talk with you instead of just oogle over your body as so many do, I wanted to know the mind behind it and what made it run. I guess you want the women to drool and not know the real you. Again I apologize for what I said that offended you so, it was never meant to do so."

I look over it now and for the most part I still agree with because still he shows that he doesn't do second chances but I do kinda feel bad about calling out to him all at once like that.  I've been told many times that when my temper is up my words can slice like a sword and that is what they did here.  

Since he does not appear to be a forgiving man, I pray that God forgives me for using my tongue as a sword and speaking out in my anger.  I need to remember Proverbs 12:18 "Thoughtless words can wound as deeply as any sword, but wisely spoken words can heal." 

I want my words to be healing and not wounding.  I want to help people and not hurt people with what I have to say.  I pray this sword that I hold within is able to be contained more easily.